so fuck you anyway

sometimes feel I can not breathe, when things really get bad, I do not care about anything, my fucking reality is indifference, lack of motivation, fatigue. I do not like to bother anyone and yet it is almost inevitable. sad? this word not exist.
of every late that i've had ,this was the saddest. see how people continue their lives, while I run crying is terrible,I know I'm not the only person that walks, I know I'm not the only person who sometimes suffers, feels bad. But they do not see the sadness in the world, the agony of time, the pain, the slow hours of the earth. the pain, the fucking pain. Is all,would go to seek a solution, but I'm too cowardly, I'm afraid to look, look again, wrong. I can only observe, see how they take our life, see how they destroy us, as we become dependent and finally, watch as they steal dreams. I don't have option, I'm fucking sick, I'm very sad, very nervous, very weak. I would think that everything is a dream, and wake up calm and happy, as never.I know many do not understand me, but it's my experience, I hope you never feel this way,i don't lie, it's not easy. goodbye and good luck to all, I suppose this will always be a part of me. :)